Intention
Monday, February 13, 2012
ألسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
Many of you may have encountered this hadith before. It's the first hadith in the 40 Hadith of An-Nawawi. I've heard it for many times, but I am glad Allah let me read it one more time, Alhamdulillah.
Actions are judged by intentions
It is narrated on the authority of Amirul Mu'minin, Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:
"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated."
[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]
I am a scared woman right now, after being reminded of this hadith. It is easier said than done, to have our niyyah renewed everyday. Preaching is easier than walking the talk. Nauzubillah, I pray and hope that I am not one of those who do deeds, for others but Allah alone.
Lets renew our niyyah in doing things, even if it is in the simplest form of act like smiling and walking to the biggest in performing our ibadah. May Allah reward us Jannah.
The Weakening Soul
Friday, February 10, 2012
ألسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
So this heart is weakening.
Sober heart it is.
Lacking in everything.
Searching for the one, the good.
Lost for awhile.
Tracking the way back.
As soon as possible.
Oh heart, trembling heart.
Oh soul, crying soul.
Make this eyes flow with tears.
Come oh fear, stay in here.
For I want to be the witness.
The oneness of Him.
Do I testify.
The lost girl.
Heart.
Seems hard yet so fragile.
Broken and mend countless times.
But belief kept her steadfast.
And hope.
Trying. Trying. Trying.
This girl will not go down.
Feeding whatever possible.
Growing the seed inside her.
For a new season coming.
And the weak becomes strong.
Bouncing.
One more time.
A girl is born.
Again.
The Final Semester
Monday, January 16, 2012
ألسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
Alhamdulillah.
2011 is a history and 2012 is waiting for a new journey.
This going to be the last semester of my final year before completing my degree, insyaAllah. Time has passed, quickly if I may say it is. It feels as if I've only arrived in Edinburgh yesterday.
I am preparing myself to bid farewell to this land. The land that changed me significantly, and still constantly changing my perspective upon things I take for granted before.
Well, moving on to my winter break. I was back in Malaysia last month, to celebrate my sister's engagement. Alhamdulillah, everything went well and as planned.
My sister looked gorgeous on that day and I am so happy for her. InsyaAllah, may Allah make it easy for her to get married this year. And yes, a week to go before I have my siblings coming to town. =)
Surah Ar-Rum : The Romans (30:21)
Where is the Forgiveness, Brothers and Sisters?
Sunday, October 23, 2011
ألسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
20th of October 2011, marked as a very infamous historical date : A dictator killed by his own people - shamefully.
My sincere personal view disapproved the way he's being treated. Immorality. I see no difference in what had been portrayed by Gaddafi (if it is true that he was an evil, heartless dictator) with the people who kicked and punched him to death. Where is the sympathy? Where is the Muslim who uphold justice, truth and dignity? I do not see the triumph of winning against a fragile, effortless, lying dead body on the ground over hundreds of people. While the conspiracies and stories of hatred being covered by the mainstream medias, there is one kingdom that mourns of his death - one at least. The Toro Kingdom. And remember, who are we to judge what was inside him and his intention of fighting till the end; perhaps for his nation or his religion. Allah knows best and all we can do is to pray for his soul to be blessed and be among the good ones. Let's forgive as Allah loves those who forgive and the ability to forget will be a blessing/gift from Allah. Remember, Allah is Al Ghaffar, Al Ghafur and Al Hakam.
My sincere personal view disapproved the way he's being treated. Immorality. I see no difference in what had been portrayed by Gaddafi (if it is true that he was an evil, heartless dictator) with the people who kicked and punched him to death. Where is the sympathy? Where is the Muslim who uphold justice, truth and dignity? I do not see the triumph of winning against a fragile, effortless, lying dead body on the ground over hundreds of people. While the conspiracies and stories of hatred being covered by the mainstream medias, there is one kingdom that mourns of his death - one at least. The Toro Kingdom. And remember, who are we to judge what was inside him and his intention of fighting till the end; perhaps for his nation or his religion. Allah knows best and all we can do is to pray for his soul to be blessed and be among the good ones. Let's forgive as Allah loves those who forgive and the ability to forget will be a blessing/gift from Allah. Remember, Allah is Al Ghaffar, Al Ghafur and Al Hakam.
Those who spend (freely), whether in prosperity, or in adversity; who restrain anger, and pardon (all) men;- for Allah loves those who do good;- (Ali 'Imran - 3:134 )
Nor can goodness and Evil be equal. Repel (Evil) with what is better: Then will he between whom and thee was hatred become as it were thy friend and intimate!And no one will be granted such goodness except those who exercise patience and self-restraint,- none but persons of the greatest good fortune. ( Fussilat - 41:34 and 35 )
Fear, Hope and Love
Saturday, October 1, 2011
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
My Iman is trembling.
As...
I am a hungry man. Thirsty for a sip of Iman. Hunger for food to the soul.
It is time to gear up my engine again.
I want to be close to You.
I want to submit to You with Fear, Hope and Love.
Eid Mubarak + Milky Way
Saturday, September 3, 2011
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
Eid Mubarak everyone.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
One of the reactions goes :
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin!
Alhamdulillah, this year I got the opportunity to celebrate Eid with my family for a week longer.
These past few days, I have been thinking of travelling to Spain. To catch the beautiful nights of milky way at its highest point. But, it requires a very intensive training in the gym and hopefully, I will adhere to the routine. Slightly lower than Mount Kinabalu, I truly wish to be there to see with my naked eyes of the beautiful stars that this galaxy owns.
One of the reactions goes :
"There are things in this world that do not need any words. This video captures some of them,"
Sadness & Eid
Friday, August 26, 2011
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
I seldom find myself in sadness. But it is starting to hit me every now and then these past few weeks. I force myself to smile and sometimes I couldn't stop my tears from bursting. Too many things come at one go and I am entirely clueless of them all.
I just need someone to lend me a shoulder for me to lean on. And Alhamdulillah, I have my parents by my side. The best thing to do at the moment is to stay strong and tawakal.
As Eid-ul-Fitr is nearing, a whole lot of us is busy preparing for the festivities but as for yours truly, I am less prepared this year. I want to take it as easy and simple as possible. I want to taste the beauty of celebrating it with the less fortunate, indulge in the hardship they go through and search for happiness in the middle of poverty. That to sum them up is to taste the other side's flavor of Eid, insyaAllah.
Last but not least, I hope it is still not too late to wish you Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin sincerely , from the bottom of my heart. Forgive me for any mistakes and wrongdoings and I pray that we all have a blessed Eid together. May Allah grant our du'a. Amin.
Harta
Saturday, August 20, 2011
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
Dahulu, di zaman tuan punya muda remaja, tuan punya selalu impikan kekayaan berlipat ganda. Betapa hidup ini terlalu disogokkan dengan kepentingan harta. Tanpa harta kita merana dan binasa. Aduh, ceteknya permikiran tuan punya.
Emak tuan punya pulang ke tempat kerja lama untuk menjenguk pesakit - pesakit di sana. Ada seorang teman hidup berusaha tapi jika tiada kurnia harta, mampu tersenyum redha. Emak tuan punya sungguh kagum dengan temannya yang sakit menderita tapi positif terhadap semua benda. Doa yang tajam itu digunakan sebagai senjata. Sebaik pulang ke sana, segalanya sudah bertambah sempurna. Harta itu datang sengaja dan kekayaan tidak diduga bersama jua. Itulah rezeki namanya. Hanya perlu kita percaya yang rezeki itu milik Dia dan kita hanya hamba peminjam segala yang Dia punya.
Emak juga rajin bercerita. Ilmu itu bagaikan pelita. Fardhu kifayah di dalam agama. Ilmu agama itu wajib, menjadi tuntutan setiap insan yang pelupa. Harta itu tidak membawa kemana, jika disimpan atau diguna semena-mena. Letakkan kekayaan sebagai jalan membuat pahala. Ianyakan hanya pinjaman sementara?
Katakanlah " Jika bapak - bapakmu, isteri- isterimu, saudara - saudaramu, keluargamu, harta kekayaan yang kamu khawatirkan kerugiannya, dan rumah - rumah tempat tinggal yang kamu sukai, lebih kamu cintai dari pada Allah dan RasulNya serta berjihad di jalanNya, maka tunggulah sampai Allah memberikan keputusanNya." Dan Allah tidak memberi petunjuk kepada orang - orang fasik. (9:24)
Kerana itulah tuan punya sungguh takut dengan dunia. Walau kadangkala, sering saja dibuai dalam angan - angan manusia. Mahukan kereta terhebat, rumah terbesar dan wang terbanyak. Lihat? Betapa tuan punya sudah terlalu terikut dengan omongan suara dunia. Jadi jom, ringan ringankanlah tangan membersih harta, mencari berkat dalam kehidupan. Bagi yang kurang berkemampuan pula, jika harta bukan bidang kita, senyumlah. Pahala itu Allah letakkan dimana saja, hanya menunggu insan mengutip dan menggunakannya.
Ingatkan Aku
لسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
Hari ini aku dibukakan mata.
Mungkin aku masih tidak sekuat mana.
Tapi Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana membuka mataku sekali lagi.
Betapa aku mudah alpha, dengan duniawi yang sungguh 'sempurna'.
Aku terlupa mengejar doa.
Dan hari ini kau hantukkan kepala insan hina.
Astaghfirullah astaghfirullah.
Seakan sukar untuk percaya aku masih lupa.
Hari ini kau buktikan padaku iman manusia ada pasang surutnya.
Kau paparkan padaku bagaimana insan mampu berubah sekelip mata.
Aku.... terkedu dan membisu.
Menyelongkar bibit kata yang harus aku aturkan semula.
Subhanallah.
Allah itu Maha Kaya.
Manusia bisa bertukar tanpa diduga.
Sungguh, aku yakin pada tulisan Luh Mahfuznya.
Ramadhan Al Mubarak
Saturday, August 6, 2011
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
It was overwhelming to see the faces of my neighbour to perform taraweeh together. And as for my little nieces, this is the month to let them understand the essence of fasting.
I was about to perform my Asr prayer when my nieces decided to join me for jamaah. Subhanallah, they all have grown up. They do not know the full readings and recitations in salah, but God knows how proud I am to be their aunt. Yes, there are flaws here and there, but to know they have their own initiatives to join me for salah, is one of the most beautiful moment Allah could lend me.
A short sharing session with this little princesses was a funny one - about angels that are always be with them to check on their good and bad deeds has triggered their mind to ask numerous questions. I am pleased to know they wanted to learn about this. Alhamdulillah.
I hope I have at the very least of my effort, shape them to be a better muslimah. InsyaAllah.
